Time for a small story.

Sorry for not being able to post regularly people. In my defense, I’m still recovering and trying to get things into place. Last 36 days of my life have been the toughest days, I’ve ever faced in a long time.

So today, I’m going to share some words from a short-film intead of a song.

” Hey. I know we haven’t seen each other.

Or even talk to each other in a while.

But I want you to know… That I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.

And… I want you to know that… I miss you.

Not I regret what happened or I want to see you again.

Just… I miss you. Just… I miss you.

It’s so strange to think that someone I knew so well… Is now a total stranger to me.

That sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you. Maybe a little bit? Most of the time… I let myself forget. Because it’s easier.

But then I find something. A photo… A gift… The stupid love letters we used to give each other… And the full weight of what’s being lost crashes down on me. Part of me wants to see you again. To hold you again. To kiss you again. But all of those feelings become empty thoughts. When I look back now… Remembering that love isn’t always what it seems. It’s just so easy to forget.

But this isn’t regret. We had our reasons for ending it. And they are as valid as ever. But back at the start… We didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did.

The reasons came at the end. And everything since then has been about reasons. And that’s good. Means that one day I’ll find someone who I won’t have to say goodbye to. But,a part of me ,just misses loving someone. And having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is… I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great. I hope everything is great. I hope you have found a love…

That’s all the things ours couldn’t be.

But… Just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons.

And that.. You miss me… Too.”

 

Number 5 (#5)

The number five on the list is, Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton.

So this takes me back to the time when we were going on our first date, I’ll never forget that day. It was 13th May 2016, Friday. One of the best day’s of my life.

She dressed up in this amazing navy blue dress for the party in the evening. God she’s the prettiest. And she looked even more pretty than usual that day.

Coming back to the point, so she made this playlist for that day, a mix of 50 songs, that she likes and she thought I might like. I’m a huge fan of progressive rock, psychedelic rock, classic rock and blues. So she surprised me with a lot of amazing songs. And one of them which I didn’t expect was this song.

What makes it more special is that both of us associated this with the episode of friends where Monica proposes Chandler while this song plays in the background.

“It’s late in the evening; she’s wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, “Do I look all right?”
And I say, “Yes, you look wonderful tonight.”

I love you sweetheart.

Time for a story part II.

This is going to be the last post for sometime.

After giving it a lot of thought (and motivation from the people who know about this blog) I’m back again.

Time for a small story part II.

For the people who want to get context, this is continuation of an old post. Please find the link for part I below,

https://onelovesongadayforher.wordpress.com/2017/02/05/time-for-a-small-story/

It’s been more than a while now. Things haven’t gotten any easier but I think about you little less now (or I at-least try to). And on some lucky days, I go entire day without thinking about you.

You were my unicorn (not that I ever believed in them before I met you), most unbelievable girl I’ve ever met. Infinitely special and a girl I thought I would never bump into (leave alone date).

And again, not that I regret what happened or I want to all of this again. It’s just that I’m trying to process my thoughts (and process you out).

But more than anything, it’s just that I miss you.

I miss staring into your soul through your eyes (and stare at you, without you noticing me, while you were busy driving the car).

I miss those late night car drives. (both your car and infinite cuddle drives in Uber)

I miss those early morning walks in KBR Park.

I miss going to Subway and the drive-in places late in the night.

I miss going to late night movies and TGIF before we went to watch a movie. (remember that video we recorded for our future kids there? Hahahahaha)

I miss those days of waking up beside you and hugging you from back (because you always sleep on your left side).

I miss your hands wrapped around my right hand and your chin on my shoulder.

I miss hugging you to death until you squeak cutely because that’s how tight our hugs were.

I miss playing with your hair.

I miss your touch and how soothing it always was.

I miss eating the food that you cooked for me with all your love (makes feel how stupid I was to not eat the last time I was at your place, because I never knew that was going to be the last time I’d get to eat it at your place).

I miss not having that go to person around, not having that one person who I used to tell everything. But yes, that’s how breakups work I guess. It’s so strange to think that someone I knew so well, is almost a total stranger to me now.And its a shame that, this stranger was the most important person in my life (and I was hers).

More than anything else, I miss being at peace, because, you were my peace. With you beside me, there was very less that I’d have to worry about.

Again when I look back today. I know you had your reasons for ending this. And they’re all as valid as ever. And I can’t ever say that you didn’t try enough. Because we know you did. Please don’t ever blame yourself for anything (nor am I blaming you for anything).

But back in the start. We didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did.

As much as I want to have it all again, I think its about time I let you go. For all good reasons, mostly.

This isn’t a regret.And I hope that one day I’ll find someone who I won’t have to say goodbye to. But, a part of me, just misses loving someone. And having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great.

I hope everything is great. I hope you’ll find a love. That’s all the things ours couldn’t be.

But, just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons.

And that, you miss me too.”

Happy Valentines Day.

🙂

Ae dil hain muskhil (it’s difficult to live without you, O my heart)

I remember that day.

One of the many dates where we went to watch a late night movie. We went to watch this movie called Ae dil hain muskhil, which is a romantic Hindi movie.

The movie is a about a guy who struggles to move on from this girl who he loved ( who co-incidentally is also one of his closest friends, which is exactly the situation I am in too now. Hahahahahaha.).

And when this song started playing in the movie, I heard a lot of sob’s and felt my shirt get wet almost suddenly. And then I looked at her innocent face while I was wiping off tears of her face. And I was trying to cheer her up by saying, baby it’s just a movie.

But she still continued to cry for a while, said look at him baby, he is so sad.

That’s how innocent and caring she was about a fictional character! Imagine how caring she was about me once upon a  time :)? And how could I not fall in love with this cutie?

Everything I do, I do it for you!

Yet another car song of ours. I don’t have to talk anything about this song. This is our most favourite love song of ours.

This was the song, I was going to play for her on our wedding day :).

“Look into my eyes – you will see
What you mean to me.
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find me there you’ll search no more.

Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for.
You can’t tell me it’s not worth dyin’ for.
You know it’s true:
Everything I do, I do it for you.

Look into your heart – you will find
There’s nothin’ there to hide.
Take me as I am, take my life.
I would give it all, I would sacrifice.

Don’t tell me it’s not worth fightin’ for
I can’t help it, there’s nothin’ I want more
You know it’s true:
Everything I do, I do it for you, oh, yeah.

There’s no love like your love
And no other could give more love.
There’s nowhere unless you’re there
All the time, all the way, yeah.

Look into your heart, baby…

Oh, you can’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for.
I can’t help it, there’s nothin’ I want more.

Yeah, I would fight for you, I’d lie for you,
Walk the wire for you, yeah, I’d die for you.

You know it’s true:
Everything I do, oh, I do it for you.”

 

 

And who’ll watch over you, when I’m gone?

So today’s song is called Watch over you by Alter Bridge. I’ll always remember this song because, this was the last song we heard together before we were going to be away from each other for sometime.

I still remember how sad she was on the last day (even though she was pretending as if it didn’t affect her), she was dressed in this beautiful white dress. God she looked so pretty that day, I just wanted to hug her to death that day. But I couldn’t because I wasn’t sure.

“Leaves are on the ground
Fall has come
Blue skies turning gray
Like my love

I tried to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go

Who is gonna save you
When I’m gone?
And who’ll watch over you
When I’m gone?

You say you care for me
But hide it well
How can you love someone
And not yourself?

Who is gonna save you
When I’m gone?
And who’ll watch over you
When I’m gone?

And when I’m gone
Who will break your fall?
Who will you blame?

I can’t go on
And let you lose it all
It’s more than I can take
Who’ll ease your pain?
Ease your pain

Who is gonna save you when I’m gone?
Who’ll watch over you?
Who will give you strength when you’re not strong.
Who’ll watch over you when I’ve gone away?

 

I hope you had the time of your life.

So all the good things come to an end, they say. So did our beautiful journey.

But end is not always bad, and if it is bad, it isn’t the end right?

“Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don’t ask why
It’s not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs, and still-frames in your mind
Hang it on the shelf of good health and good time
Tattoo’s of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it’s worth, it was worth all the while
It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
It’s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life”

Cuz nothing really matters, except the little things

Today’s track is from this TV show that her sister thought we should watch because the couple in the show reminded her a lot about her and I.

The show is called Little Things.

“It’s not for us to say, what will be And at the end of the day,

We’ll see which way the whole thing bends, and what it could bring

Cuz nothing really matters, except the little things

Some say it works like this, maybe its true

But the truth can lie sometimes, That’s faith for you

Let the preachers talk, And we could sing

The song for survival, make sure it swings

With the Little Things”

‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Sorry people for not posting regularly. Been dealing with a lot of things lately.

“Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
‘Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep”

Today’s song is Passenger’s let her go.

We keep this love in a photograph.

Another favorite of hers.

Loving can hurt sometime, it truly can. But it’s the only thing that I know right now. So I’ll keep loving regardless of what’s happening.

“Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it’s the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel aliveWe keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen stillSo you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin’ me closer
‘Til our eyes meet
You won’t ever be alone
Wait for me to come home

And if you hurt me
That’s OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go”

Back with the sixth one.

 

 

Sorry guys.

Couldn’t post songs for the last couple of days due to certain reasons.

I’m back with the sixth song for now, its called “Here without you babe”.

This is also one of the songs from the playlist.

“A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreamin’ of your face

I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it’s only you and me”