This is going to be the last post for sometime.
After giving it a lot of thought (and motivation from the people who know about this blog) I’m back again.
Time for a small story part II.
For the people who want to get context, this is continuation of an old post. Please find the link for part I below,
It’s been more than a while now. Things haven’t gotten any easier but I think about you little less now (or I at-least try to). And on some lucky days, I go entire day without thinking about you.
You were my unicorn (not that I ever believed in them before I met you), most unbelievable girl I’ve ever met. Infinitely special and a girl I thought I would never bump into (leave alone date).
And again, not that I regret what happened or I want to all of this again. It’s just that I’m trying to process my thoughts (and process you out).
But more than anything, it’s just that I miss you.
I miss staring into your soul through your eyes (and stare at you, without you noticing me, while you were busy driving the car).
I miss those late night car drives. (both your car and infinite cuddle drives in Uber)
I miss those early morning walks in KBR Park.
I miss going to Subway and the drive-in places late in the night.
I miss going to late night movies and TGIF before we went to watch a movie. (remember that video we recorded for our future kids there? Hahahahaha)
I miss those days of waking up beside you and hugging you from back (because you always sleep on your left side).
I miss your hands wrapped around my right hand and your chin on my shoulder.
I miss hugging you to death until you squeak cutely because that’s how tight our hugs were.
I miss playing with your hair.
I miss your touch and how soothing it always was.
I miss eating the food that you cooked for me with all your love (makes feel how stupid I was to not eat the last time I was at your place, because I never knew that was going to be the last time I’d get to eat it at your place).
I miss not having that go to person around, not having that one person who I used to tell everything. But yes, that’s how breakups work I guess. It’s so strange to think that someone I knew so well, is almost a total stranger to me now.And its a shame that, this stranger was the most important person in my life (and I was hers).
More than anything else, I miss being at peace, because, you were my peace. With you beside me, there was very less that I’d have to worry about.
Again when I look back today. I know you had your reasons for ending this. And they’re all as valid as ever. And I can’t ever say that you didn’t try enough. Because we know you did. Please don’t ever blame yourself for anything (nor am I blaming you for anything).
But back in the start. We didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did.
As much as I want to have it all again, I think its about time I let you go. For all good reasons, mostly.
This isn’t a regret.And I hope that one day I’ll find someone who I won’t have to say goodbye to. But, a part of me, just misses loving someone. And having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great.
I hope everything is great. I hope you’ll find a love. That’s all the things ours couldn’t be.
But, just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons.
And that, you miss me too.”
Happy Valentines Day.