Time for a story part II.

This is going to be the last post for sometime.

After giving it a lot of thought (and motivation from the people who know about this blog) I’m back again.

Time for a small story part II.

For the people who want to get context, this is continuation of an old post. Please find the link for part I below,

https://onelovesongadayforher.wordpress.com/2017/02/05/time-for-a-small-story/

It’s been more than a while now. Things haven’t gotten any easier but I think about you little less now (or I at-least try to). And on some lucky days, I go entire day without thinking about you.

You were my unicorn (not that I ever believed in them before I met you), most unbelievable girl I’ve ever met. Infinitely special and a girl I thought I would never bump into (leave alone date).

And again, not that I regret what happened or I want to all of this again. It’s just that I’m trying to process my thoughts (and process you out).

But more than anything, it’s just that I miss you.

I miss staring into your soul through your eyes (and stare at you, without you noticing me, while you were busy driving the car).

I miss those late night car drives. (both your car and infinite cuddle drives in Uber)

I miss those early morning walks in KBR Park.

I miss going to Subway and the drive-in places late in the night.

I miss going to late night movies and TGIF before we went to watch a movie. (remember that video we recorded for our future kids there? Hahahahaha)

I miss those days of waking up beside you and hugging you from back (because you always sleep on your left side).

I miss your hands wrapped around my right hand and your chin on my shoulder.

I miss hugging you to death until you squeak cutely because that’s how tight our hugs were.

I miss playing with your hair.

I miss your touch and how soothing it always was.

I miss eating the food that you cooked for me with all your love (makes feel how stupid I was to not eat the last time I was at your place, because I never knew that was going to be the last time I’d get to eat it at your place).

I miss not having that go to person around, not having that one person who I used to tell everything. But yes, that’s how breakups work I guess. It’s so strange to think that someone I knew so well, is almost a total stranger to me now.And its a shame that, this stranger was the most important person in my life (and I was hers).

More than anything else, I miss being at peace, because, you were my peace. With you beside me, there was very less that I’d have to worry about.

Again when I look back today. I know you had your reasons for ending this. And they’re all as valid as ever. And I can’t ever say that you didn’t try enough. Because we know you did. Please don’t ever blame yourself for anything (nor am I blaming you for anything).

But back in the start. We didn’t need any reasons to fall in love. We just did.

As much as I want to have it all again, I think its about time I let you go. For all good reasons, mostly.

This isn’t a regret.And I hope that one day I’ll find someone who I won’t have to say goodbye to. But, a part of me, just misses loving someone. And having them love you back. That’s all. I guess what I’m saying is, I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great.

I hope everything is great. I hope you’ll find a love. That’s all the things ours couldn’t be.

But, just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons.

And that, you miss me too.”

Happy Valentines Day.

🙂

Ae dil hain muskhil (it’s difficult to live without you, O my heart)

I remember that day.

One of the many dates where we went to watch a late night movie. We went to watch this movie called Ae dil hain muskhil, which is a romantic Hindi movie.

The movie is a about a guy who struggles to move on from this girl who he loved ( who co-incidentally is also one of his closest friends, which is exactly the situation I am in too now. Hahahahahaha.).

And when this song started playing in the movie, I heard a lot of sob’s and felt my shirt get wet almost suddenly. And then I looked at her innocent face while I was wiping off tears of her face. And I was trying to cheer her up by saying, baby it’s just a movie.

But she still continued to cry for a while, said look at him baby, he is so sad.

That’s how innocent and caring she was about a fictional character! Imagine how caring she was about me once upon a  time :)? And how could I not fall in love with this cutie?

And who’ll watch over you, when I’m gone?

So today’s song is called Watch over you by Alter Bridge. I’ll always remember this song because, this was the last song we heard together before we were going to be away from each other for sometime.

I still remember how sad she was on the last day (even though she was pretending as if it didn’t affect her), she was dressed in this beautiful white dress. God she looked so pretty that day, I just wanted to hug her to death that day. But I couldn’t because I wasn’t sure.

“Leaves are on the ground
Fall has come
Blue skies turning gray
Like my love

I tried to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go

Who is gonna save you
When I’m gone?
And who’ll watch over you
When I’m gone?

You say you care for me
But hide it well
How can you love someone
And not yourself?

Who is gonna save you
When I’m gone?
And who’ll watch over you
When I’m gone?

And when I’m gone
Who will break your fall?
Who will you blame?

I can’t go on
And let you lose it all
It’s more than I can take
Who’ll ease your pain?
Ease your pain

Who is gonna save you when I’m gone?
Who’ll watch over you?
Who will give you strength when you’re not strong.
Who’ll watch over you when I’ve gone away?

 

I hope you had the time of your life.

So all the good things come to an end, they say. So did our beautiful journey.

But end is not always bad, and if it is bad, it isn’t the end right?

“Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don’t ask why
It’s not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs, and still-frames in your mind
Hang it on the shelf of good health and good time
Tattoo’s of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it’s worth, it was worth all the while
It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right
I hope you had the time of your life

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
It’s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life”

‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Sorry people for not posting regularly. Been dealing with a lot of things lately.

“Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
‘Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
‘Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep”

Today’s song is Passenger’s let her go.

We keep this love in a photograph.

Another favorite of hers.

Loving can hurt sometime, it truly can. But it’s the only thing that I know right now. So I’ll keep loving regardless of what’s happening.

“Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it’s the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel aliveWe keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen stillSo you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin’ me closer
‘Til our eyes meet
You won’t ever be alone
Wait for me to come home

And if you hurt me
That’s OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go”

For the fourth time.

Well I’m back again.

Today’s song is not only one of her favorites but also her dad’s favourite.

“Hello, is it me you’re looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You’re all I’ve ever wanted and my arms are open wide
Cause you know just what to say and you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you”

I love you

Time for the Third.

Today we have one of her favourite songs ever.

I still remember the day when we were going back home after a date, she was driving her car and this song started playing. The next thing you know, she starts crying. I asked her why she was crying? And then she doesn’t say anything, just runs her fingers through my hair onto my cheeks. After she drops me home, she tells me that she was sad because she wouldn’t get to see me until few more hours.

What a cutie!

“I was made to keep your body warm
But I’m cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms

Oh no
My heart’s against your chest, your lips pressed in my neck
I’m falling for your eyes, but they don’t know me yet
And with this feeling I’ll forget, I’m in love now

Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
We’re falling in love

Yeah I’ve been feeling everything
From hate to love
From love to lust
From lust to truth
I guess that’s how I know you
So I hold you close to help you give it up”

I will always love you babe.

P.S.: I don’t own any rights to any of the songs that are posted here.